The “Why Me?” phase – Beginning of our spiritual journey :)

How I wonder...

I am sure all of us might have been through a period when nothing made sense, when all the logic failed and no matter how hard we tried we were still not able to join the dots

We then activate the best of our defensive mode and question the universe back to find the answers. We list out all the good we have done and sometimes we list out the bad we think others have done. So why me?

Why must I suffer? Why must I go through this? We quote the mantras, shlokas, the law of karma or the law of attraction. yet, we feel we are moving in circles and not coming onto one destination. Afterall, we want to claim the best of everything that we invest in our lives. πŸ™‚

Surely, our memory will serve us the best for our actions in this lifetime, it can help us claim the good we think we deserve now. But how can we guarantee knowing fully the account of our past lives? We don’t have the events, the reference points from all the lives we have lived before.

Our mind, body and soul have been greatly influenced by the sun, moon and the constellations above. And we know that these magnificent celestial bodies exist since billions of years. This confirms our eternal essence. Maybe our stories go as far as these billion years. All the planets and stars are so beautifully interconnected with sacred alignments and we have been living through these energies.

We are not what we see, we are not what we think and we are certainly not what we remember now. The truth is unknown but it exist and it can be discovered only through our personal experiences.

Accepting the above makes a person humble. I have walked myself for the past decade through disasters, destruction, disappointments, frustration, defending myself, questioning the authority, the logic, the universe and everything that I saw around, until I reached to a point realizing that I am trying to make sense of this big universe that not only exists outside me but also lives within me. My inquisitive heart is trying to decode a secret of billion years old. πŸ™‚

And to my amusement I figured out that it is not that easy. I cannot claim what I think I deserve based on the accounts of this lifetime. I need to look within. I need to continue the journey with an open heart. and most importantly I need to be as humble as I can along this path. Every event has its own time for the reasons again known to our universe.

I believe my frustration could have also led me to a path of being an atheist or agnostic. Few of my friends have switched to that path πŸ™‚ But one thing helped me so far and that is my will to always accept a humble attitude. Even though I challenged the universe I knew deep in my heart that something that exists for so long and have been functioning for eternity with its rules will always be superior to my understanding of events πŸ™‚

I affirmed the above each and every time I failed. Instead I then began to claim my right to learn and prayed to the energies I believe in to guide me through my misunderstandings and hold my strong even when things fall apart.

The – Why me? phase is certainly not the end of everything. Trust your heart, you will see it is in fact a beginning of a beautiful chapter that we have been wanting to learn or master and now is the time. Every accident surely has a reason. Its okay to vent out, to feel the hurt, to mourn but it is important to surrender our logic to the higher reason. Have faith that we have been part of an very ancient and a sacred constitution and that there shall never be injustice done to us. πŸ™‚

The – Why me? phase is certainly not the end of everything. Trust your heart, you will see it is in fact a beginning of a beautiful chapter that we have been wanting to learn or master and now is the time. Every accident surely has a reason. Its okay to vent out, to feel the hurt, to mourn but it is important to surrender our logic to the higher reason. Have faith that we have been part of an very ancient and a sacred constitution and that there shall never be injustice done to us. πŸ™‚

My apologies for writing this long, but I wanted to share with a hope that it would bring peace to some hearts ❀

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6 thoughts on “The “Why Me?” phase – Beginning of our spiritual journey :)

  1. Wonderful piece Ankita! I think I can relate to your path (as many people can). And I also found somewhat peace in being agnostic. For me, I found peace in that fact that now all questions will be answered, and not all answers will have questions – I guess unasked opinions.

    I however, can’t relate to the “why me?” phase. Maybe, I have never been desperate enough, maybe I am to “sober”, a bit too much “down to earth” for that. I don’t know.

    I hope you will find what ever it is what you are looking for. But indeed, trust your heart, sometimes you don’t even know what it is you are looking for πŸ˜‰

    All the best!

    Warm regards,
    Tieme

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    • Thanks Tieme. I’m one of the most curious minds lol I end up questioning everything around especially subjects related to our lives in general. Because of which I end up with some or the other conclusion/opinion or understanding even if it changes with time. But I certainly cannot float in nothingness πŸ™‚ this blog is more of a personal diary than anything else πŸ™‚

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