Mine certainly was! until I realized how ignorantly I have been approaching The Divine Power.
I explored deeper to understand the pattern and found out a very hideous trail that has been programmed inside all of us probably since childhood.
I was trained to pray for wisdom and strength (i.e to achieve good grades) throughout my school life, then eventually to seek good job, further claiming success and recognition. My apologies if it sounds ghastly materialistic.
I have seen others praying miserably to get the best partner, healthy child, lush homes and comfort cars.
I knew in my gut this isn’t the right way of approaching the Supreme Power and gradually I discovered the power of Gratitude. I started counting being thankful to the plate of meal or even an ounce of free water as a humble prayer. However, my wishlist continued to exist.
Running through my twenties I have lot of dreams and desires that I wished, needed, hoped to be fulfilled, and I discussed all of them in my private prayers with God. Its a pity how vehemently sometimes I claimed for the things I felt I deserve against a good conduct and at times how I would like to receive them.
This continued for few years but I loved God and all of his angels anyway. I wouldn’t hesitate to say I believed my relationship with him is that of cousins. I share, I fight and patch up immediately.
But then came a moment, where I realized to my utmost distress that how far I have allowed God to count on me when HE needs me!
I surely wanted to be loved by him but how much sincerely I have loved him back or expressed the same?
Simply following rules and morals isn’t enough. I bitterly observe that we hardly approach God without any agendas.
I was saddened thinking that I have hardly whispered ” I love you” to God, that Supreme power, to the same Universe. I contemplated upon this new found feeling over several days and finally decided to make that I say “I love you” accompanied with gratitude whenever I thought of God or every time I felt thankful toward him 🙂
My heart believes that this power of “I love you” is as significant as the power of Gratitude.
So these days, when I am done watching the stars and I hit the bed with a prayer of gratitude, I also quietly carve “I love you” in my mind and say it back to the Divine. It makes you feel content, humble, mature and responsible (I don’t know of what yet. I am still discovering) but certainly nothing lesser than above
I share this personal experience of healing with a hope if it resonates with anyone. I would be glad if our beloved Universe, the divine power receives more ” I love yous” from all of us 🙂